God’s Timing, or Ours?

The countdown has begun!  We count the days, the months, and the years…and when a happening is upon us we have been known to count the minutes and hours, too!  We prepare, we anticipate and we look for signs.  If we had our way, everything would have happened yesterday.  We forget that life on earth is all about the journey.
Genesis 4:3 makes this statement:  “And in process of time it came to pass…”.  Life is all about the process.  Learning, growing and being are overlooked so many times in our efforts to get somewhere or to achieve an outcome.  If we are not careful, we can rush through the days and events of our life and miss our opportunities to simply walk in fellowship with Christ, to sit at His feet and enjoy the sweetness of a relationship with our Creator.
Are we worried, frustrated and stressed?  I know that when I find myself experiencing those feelings, that what I need the most is just to spend some time with Him.  When I allow time for a conscious understanding of who He is and who I am in Him…I gain perspective and confidence to face the challenges of my life.  Frustration and fear are replaced with peace.  I know that what He has promised will come to pass in His time, not mine.
God told Israel that He was going send the Messiah…and they prepared, anticipated and looked for signs.  He didn’t come in the manner they expected Him to come and He didn’t come when they expected Him to come.  Generations waited for the fulfillment of His promise.  And He did come.  Galatians 4:4 says, “But when the fullness of the time was come, God sent forth His Son, made of a woman…”.  The fulness of time in our lives will come…because God always does what He says He will do!  It’s just that simple.
So…let’s relax in Him, embrace the joys that this season brings, and make the most of our precious time in the waiting room!
“I have set the Lord always before me: because he is at my right hand,
I shall not be moved.
Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoiceth:
my flesh also shall rest in hope.”
PSALM 16:8,9
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No More, No More, No More, No More!

Hit the road, jack, and don’t you come back no more!

Why do we allow the enemy of our soul to taunt us?  We need to learn to take authority over him.  He is a liar and the father of lies.  We have the Word of God…the written, powerful, infallible truth that He has given us…to combat those lies.  We also have the things that He has whispered to our weary, broken spirits to comfort and confirm that He is God and that He is still in control.  We must learn how to STAND on His Word.   We must NEVER back down, NEVER stop believing, and never, NEVER throw in the towel or quit!  What He says will be, WILL BE! We may not know how, we may not know when…but it just doesn’t matter!  This is a WALK of faith…step by step…THIS is a journey…and we can REST in KNOWING that God is faithful and true…that He never fails…that He will be faithful to finish the work that He began.

“Know therefore that the Lord thy God, he is God, the faithful God, which keepeth covenant and mercy with them that love him and keep His commandments to a thousand generations…”

Deuteronomy 7:9


So, when the enemy comes to whisper failure, defeat and fear…just tell him…

Hit the road, jack, and don’t you come back no more!

My Uncle, George Heuer

I am awakened in the wee hours of this morning…with thoughts of my dear Aunt Freida (my mother’s only living sister), my Uncle George, and their children, my cousins…the Heuer family.

In all of my growing up years, I remember living with an abiding anticipation of the visits that my family would make from our home in Illinois to their home in Columbia, South Carolina, and vice-versa. There was nothing that we (the Hindmans) longed for more than those times when our families could be together. With four children in each family, it was guaranteed fun for us. There was the natural familial bond that existed between our families, and then there was a special, additional bond created by our mutual faith in God.  My mother (who was the youngest in her family) always especially admired Aunt Freida, as anyone who knew her, would.  She was, and still is I am sure, a gentle, loving soul…with much the same sweetness to her personality as our dear Grandma Enyart.

Just this past week, Uncle George has passed from this life and he is now in the presence of the Lord.  This, I know.  I have been remembering him and the ways that this man, who truly was an Uncle-in-Love (by marriage), touched my life. Some of the things that I recall about Uncle George just make me smile…random memories.

On one occasion, Uncle George had purchased several girls’ hats from Roses just after Easter…so we (his daughters and my sister and I) chose our favorites.  It seemed such an awesome bounty to me.  Thanks, Uncle George!

I remember a car trip from South Carolina to Illinois.  My cousin, Lonnie, had gone home with my brother, Ron, and I had stayed in Columbia with my cousin, Janet.  It was a “kid-switch” trip, I am sure…as there were several of those throughout the years.  Anyway, it was just Aunt Freida, Uncle George, Janet and I in the car.  The thing that stands out to me about the trip was that Uncle George chose the station-scan feature on the car radio, and played it like that during the entire nineteen hour trip, never stopping on one station to listen.  Aunt Freida begged him to stop it on a station, but it seems to me that we listened to the radio like that for the whole trip.  Music…static…talking…static….commercial…static…music…static, etc.  It was funny to me, especially in the areas where no stations would come through…just static…static…static.  That still makes me smile.  I am sure that he was just trying to stay awake.

Church played a big role in all of our lives.  It seemed like we were either going to church, talking about church, or the kids were “playing church”.  Those were wonderful days and wonderful times.

Even though I went to church every Sunday morning and night, Tuesday night and Friday night (not counting revival services), it was at Uncle George’s church that I grew “hungry” for the infilling of the Holy Spirit…and was subsequently, baptized in the Spirit.  That was significant in my life.  Thanks, Uncle George!

As a little girl, I remember hugs and encouragement from Uncle George…and in the few drive-by visits with him after I became an adult…the same.  We never parted ways without prayer.  I smile as I recall that Uncle George’s prayers were always marked with a rhythmic “bounce” of fervency.  I am confident that he prayed for us all many times throughout his life.

There were and are a lot of things about Uncle George that I don’t know or can’t remember…because we (our families) grew up and life and it’s responsibilities happened…but Uncle George had a definite impact on my life.  I cannot separate a memory of him from an impression of his faith.  There was no question about the fact that he loved God and that his passion for the Lord defined him.

Uncle George was a fine, godly man, husband and father, who touched countless lives and I just want to honor him and his memory today.  I loved him and I will always be thankful that he was a part of my life.

The abiding anticipation that I live with now is not necessarily a family gathering in this life…although that would be a blessed gift…but it is an abiding anticipation of the day when we all gather around the throne of God.  Grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins (so many who have gone before)…family and friends…to lay our crowns at His feet in worship.  For believers (as we are) this is only a temporary separation.  We will all be together again…and his home-going will only make the family reunion that much sweeter.

I love you, Uncle George!  I’ll see you later…

“Henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness,

which the Lord, the righteous judge, shall give me at that day: and not to me only,

but unto all them also that love his appearing.”

II Timothy 4:8

Decisions, Decisions…

I have always hated making decisions.   I smile when I think about how hard it is for certain members of my family to make choices.  For instance, we used to make my brother, David, place his order last in a restaurant because if he didn’t, he would change his mind with every order he heard.  Also, there were times when the debate over where to eat out on Sunday would cause major tension in my family because no one really knew where they wanted to go.  BUT!  They DID KNOW where they DID NOT want to go.  Silly, huh?  When I became an adult, I used to “throw out” suggestions, just so we could narrow down the choices.  I knew that sooner or later, I would hit on the right place.  It was like we had to be headed somewhere before we could determine if it WAS or WASN’T where we wanted to go.  After changing our direction a couple of times, my poor Dad would stop the car and refuse to go ANYWHERE until SOMEONE made a final decision.  (In making that statement, I suppose that you have realized that this trait comes from my mother’s side of the family….sorry, Mom!)

I have learned to deal with my own inability to choose by deciding what I DON’T WANT from the beginning and then, letting the “chips fall” where they may.  (As for restaurants, I have learned that I can usually find something that appeals to me on the menu wherever we go.)  This may be a backward approach, but I eliminate choices by deciding on what I don’t want…and then, choosing from the options that remain.

Buyers’ remorse is something that I have not totally avoided in life, but I cope with that by understanding that some things aren’t really worth the “decision-trauma”.  Sometimes you just have to choose.  So, I choose.  Sometimes I choose well…and sometimes, I don’t.

Another problem I have is that I am a people-pleaser…and I think that because of that tendency…I have difficulty knowing my-SELF.  I can assure you that I am getting better at this in my “old age”.  There is something liberating about turning 50, I think.

Anyway…

I was sitting in a youth camp this last week thinking about life-choices and remembering an old song that we seemed to sing at camp every year when I was a kid.  That song was…”I Have Decided To Follow Jesus…No Turning Back, No Turning Back.”  A verse stated, “Though None Go With Me, Still I Will Follow…No Turning Back, No Turning Back.”  I can tell you that the most important decision that I ever made was to follow Jesus…and that ALL of the other big decisions that I have made in my life have been evaluated by, and BASED UPON, that one choice.

I have never turned back.  I have never regretted the decision and I have never suffered any “Buyer’s Remorse”.  It was a good decision…the right decision.  At the foundation of my life, I CHOSE Him and He has subsequently directed the pathways of my life.  There have been times that I have had to reconfirm that choice, but I have found that when I truly choose HIM…when my heart is settled…that all of the other life-decisions are easier to make.  I have had to learn HOW to LISTEN for His voice.

His Word says (paraphrased) that His children will know His voice.  I have found this to be true…but I have also found that I have to be fully yielded to Him to UNDERSTAND what His will is.  When I resolve all of my “self”-ish desires and I am ready to listen…He speaks.  He always does…and His plans for me are always prosperous ones.

I just have to “let go” and “let God”…

So, when we struggle with indecision…maybe we should consider the reason or basis of the struggle.  Maybe we just need to settle the issues of our heart…and then, let go…

“Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.  In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”

Proverbs 3:5-6

Just a little food for thought.

Two Little Arms Around My Neck

Sweetness, delight and kisses on my cheek…

Innocence and intelligence…

Wonder and imagination…

Easy to see in you.

Cuddles in the evening and talks into the night…

Breathing in the fragrance of you…

Learning the person that you are…

How precious this gift of time!

Giggles and silliness…

Jokes between us two…

Games and laughter…

I won…then, you.

Days and weeks and years will come and go…

Calendar pages will fly…

Change will come for me and you, ’tis true…

But this heart will always remember…

This time and the pure joy of two little arms around my neck.

I love you, Ben.

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Good, Good People!

So, I have been thinking lately about people…and my new ventures into the world of Facebook have brought a lot of the people that I have been thinking about…to mind.  Getting in touch with those from whom I have been separated by distance and just life, in general, has been so wonderful.  It has helped me remember things about myself and think about days and happenings that have faded into the recesses of my memory and thought life.  So many good times, so much laughter and joy!

I have wistful memories of relationships that were at one particular time in my life or another, primary and vital to everyday living. Friends.  I wonder how I could have possibly let them slip away from me…people that I truly love/loved and wanted in my life.

If you know me or know anything about me, you know that I have lived in a lot of different places and fulfilled a lot of different roles in life.  I have come to realize that I “let go” of a lot of people and relationships in order to be able to cope with moving on to the new relationships that I had to form.  I have lived a life of change.  Many of my friends have lived the same way.  So, I ask…has every relationship been important?  And I answer…absolutely!

I am amused at how different my emotional response has been to all of the memories of past times and relationships.  I have been catapulted back in my memories to the “places” I knew in childhood, adolescence, young married life, child-rearing days, and ministry roles at all kinds of different levels/places.  It really has been a little weird.  There are people who knew me only as I was and people who know me only as I am.  People who have known my entire immediate family and people who have only known me in part.  Then, there are those who have known me at all of those places of life and yet, not on an everyday basis.  It becomes hard to remember who I was!  It is quite a lot to sort through…and I find myself not sure of who I am!  Can you relate?  Maybe so…maybe not.

Anyway…I have become more aware of just how rich my life has been to this point.  There are a lot of people out there that I dearly love who hold a permanent place in the heart of this one, complete person.  Really good, good people!  (If you have taken the time to read this, I am sure that you are one of the people that I am talking about.)

I just wanted you to know that I truly love you, I truly appreciate the role that you have played in my life, and I cherish your friendship/relationship.  God was so good to me when He allowed our paths to cross.  Such a rich tapestry of weaving in and out to make up the whole of my life!  You are forever a part of me.

And I cherish the thought that I will spend eternity with those of you who are believers…and I pray for those of you who are not.  I pray that you will find your way to Jesus, so that when I get to Heaven, I will be joined with you as one there, as I am in my heart…here.  Jesus has a place prepared for all of us and I want to share it with you.

You are so important to me and I am grateful for you.

I just wanted you to know…

I love you.

Thanks for being a part of my life!

Thanks for being a part of my life!

Believe Only

There is a scriptural account of a man named Jairus who came to the Lord because his daughter was at the point of death.  He asked Jesus to come and heal her and as they started on their way, Jesus was delayed by the throng of people and the incident with the woman with the issue of blood.  Jairus stood waiting through the happenings and then:

“While he yet spake, there cometh one from the ruler of the synagogue’s house, saying to him, Thy daughter is dead; trouble not the Master.  But when Jesus heard it, he answered him, saying, Fear not: believe only, and she shall be made whole.”

LUKE 8:50

Everyone “witnessed” that it was too late.  The “deed was done”.  There was no reason to hope…but the account goes on to portray that Jairus and Jesus travelled on to Jairus’ house, where Jesus brought his daughter back to life.  Jesus did the “impossible”!

A few months ago, when I was praying about some things, the Lord brought this account to my mind and I felt like He was speaking those same words to me.  ”Fear not, believe only.”  Since that time I have endeavored to do just that.  I will confess that this is not an easy thing to do…to believe only.  To keep my focus on believing when circumstances would bely that what I am believing for does not seem to be happening…or when things are not looking positive…or when things have seemed worse, rather than better.

But this whole aspect of living by faith is just that.  Believing only.  It is easy to believe God for things that seem like a possibility to us.  Believing that God will provide things that we can “see” as “reasonable”.  But when we are “believing” for something that is beyond what we can “see”…or if what we are believing for “seems” unreasonable or impossible…that is where the real work begins…because we always default to our “human”-ness.  We relate to temporal things…things that we can see with our eyes, touch with our hands.

“Believing only” is remembering that God is who He is…He is not even confined to working with things that are already in existence…He can “speak” things into existence, if need be.  He embodies ALL power.  In order to “believe only”, we have to SEE God with eyes of faith…we have to SEE that God is able…we have to SEE the fulfillment of His promises to us. 

So, today…I will not embrace fear, but I will choose to believe only.  I have never been disappointed when I have believed in Him and I will not be disappointed in these circumstances!  He never fails!…and I thank Him for what He is going to do!  Someday, I will look back and remember how He was faithful to me in this situation like so many times before!

“…nevertheless I am not ashamed: for I know whom I have believed, and am persuaded that He is able to keep that which I have committed unto him against that day.”

II TIMOTHY 1:12

 

I BELIEVE!

I BELIEVE!

Cupcakes in your Skivvies!

Recently, my grandson, Ben, and I shared a cupcake baking session.  It was a simple thing.  I had purchased some little silicone baking cups that stood on a pedestal of funny, big feet.  I thought Ben would like them.  So, when I stopped at the store, I picked up a little Jiffy yellow cake mix and a tub of prepared frosting and, of course, sugar sprinkles.

That evening, I asked Ben if he wanted to bake some cupcakes.  He was immediately engaged with the idea and we excitedly gathered the mixing bowl, the mixer, the eggs and utensils.  We whipped up those babies in no time and put them in the oven.  When they were finished baking, it took a looooooooog time for them to cool (at least to Ben’s sense of time).  They came out with funny big lumps on the top (too much batter for the cup)…but I frosted them and Ben “sprinkled” them.  They were really awesome!…(again, Ben’s version).  They were just OK…certainly, not gourmet…but they were sweet and cute…so we ate ‘em.

The thing that tickled me the most (besides watching Ben’s excitement) was that at one point in the process, after Ben had “tasted” the frosting…he asked me if I could just put some of that frosting in a bowl so he could eat it with a spoon.  Gross!  Makes me sick just thinking about it…but not Ben!  He recently helped himself to a half of a stick of softened margarine….eeeewwww!  (I think his Grammy used to really like margarine, too!)  Of course, the bowl of frosting request was denied…but I like his “vision”.  There is a boy who has an idea about getting down to what’s important!  What good is a cupcake without the frosting!

So…in conclusion…I just want to say…if life is like a cupcake…Ben is “frosting” to me!

 

Happiness!

HAPPINESS!

Ahhhh-some!

I just took a little trip with my two girls, Eryn and Elizabeth, to celebrate my 50th birthday.  Yes, the day has come and gone and I am living life as a 50 year old woman.,,and loving it!  We went to the Biltmore in Asheville.  What an awesome place!  We did the whole Christmas Candlelight tour with a daytime tour the following day.  It is a magnificent structure, full of wonderful innovations for the day and time that it was built.  It is mind-boggling to try to conceive of the lifestyle and the wealth of those who called the Biltmore home.  We loved it and had a great time…but on the way there and on the way back home…we saw some other ahhhh-some sights.  The days were perfectly cool and crisp (as they should be in the fall) and I think that the part of Tennessee that we drove through was in the height of fall color.  We were blessed with sunshine that electrified the mountains with beauty!

Since coming home, I have been thinking about the Biltmore as I looked over the photos that we took on our trip.  As magnificent as it was/and is…there are only 60 of the 260 rooms that are open for view.  They are constantly working on restoration of the home to its original grandeur.  There are displays that tell of the painstaking care that is required to accomplish the restoration.  I can hardly conceive of the labor and time that was required to build, maintain and now, restore this American castle.

In reflection of the weekend, and in viewing the creation of man and the creation of God, I am struck by the contrast of effort.  What man has labored over for a century…in contrast to what God simply spoke into existence.  There really is no comparison.  Man’s creation is always in need of renewal and restoration…but what God created, renews itself.  The mountains stand in majesty…the seasons come and go…and yet God only spoke to begin this awesome cycle of nature.  Men can do mighty things…but those things simply pale in comparison to the wonder of God’s creation.

I stood on the summit of the Great Smoky Mountains and I was swept away with the knowledge that the Creator of the Universe knows our names and that He concerns Himself with usl  We are so insignificant…but so important to Him!

“Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it.”

PSALM 139:6

It was a wonderful trip altogether…mostly because I was with the two girls that I love the most in this world. I hope they enjoyed it as much as I didl  We had some wonderful meals (most notably at the Tupelo Honey Cafe in downtown Asheville) some silliness and some rest.  Here are a couple of my favorite pics:

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WAITING TO EAT AT TUPELO HONEY CAFE

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TWO SILLY GIRLS!

Moments

MIRACLE OF THE MOMENT

By Steven Curtis Chapman

 

It’s time for letting go…All of our “if only’s”,

’Cause we don’t have a time machine.

And even if we did…Would we really want to use it?

Would we really want to go change everything?

‘Cause we are who and where and what we are for now.

And this is the only moment we can do anything about…

 

So, breathe it in and breathe it out…And listen to your heartbeat.

There’s a wonder in the here and now…It’s right there in front of you,

And I don’t want you to miss the miracle of the moment.

 

There’s only One who knows…What’s really out there waiting,

And all the moments yet to be.

And all we need to know…Is He’s out there waiting,

To Him the future’s history.

And He has given us a treasure called “Right Now”,

And this is the only moment we can do anything about…

 

So, breathe it in and breathe it out…And listen to your heartbeat.

There’s a wonder in the here and now…It’s right there in front of you,

And I don’t want you to miss the miracle of the moment.

 

And if it brings you tears…Then taste them as they fall.

Let them soften your heart.

And if it brings you laughter…Then throw your head back,

And let it go…Let it go, yeah…You gotta let it go…

And listen to your heartbeat…

 

And breathe it in and breathe it out…And listen to your heartbeat.

There’s a wonder in the here and now…It’s right there in front of you,

And I don’t want you to miss the miracle of the moment.

 

Wow!  That song has become a powerful mantra for me for the last couple of years!  My sister-in-law and I were conversing about some of the times that we went through as young parents and how hard we thought those times were.  We look back and wonder how we could have ever thought those times were hard.  Those were the best of times!…but we were so caught up in the little challenges and responsibilities that consumed us that we sometimes missed just how sweet they were.  So…I am trying to notice the moments that are miracles in my everyday life.  Trying to notice the simple, sweet things that I have right now…trying to be truly thankful for the good things that come my way…trying to remember that life really only exists in the right now.  We aren’t promised tomorrow and there really is nothing that can be done to change yesterday.  So…I hope that you will join me and fully “live” today!…and “anticipate” tomorrow!  I’m on a mission!

Below is a picture of a random “moment” that brought me great delight…what fun!

Here's me on my birthday and a few random runners on a gorgeous fall day!

Me and Some Random Runners on my Birthday!

 

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